>CS AU Week - Day 2<
(Thank you Zoe and Megan for your help.)

‘In the end, we only regret the chances we didn’t take.’
She should have told him how much she loved him. That night when they made love for the first time. When they had peaceful times. Six weeks of no worries, no monsters, only love, and kisses and more love. She should have told him when he looked at her with his blue eyes full of love. His fingers ghosting over her skin, making her feel loved, precious, wanted. His kisses leaving invisible marks, that only her heart could feel and see. He didn’t say the words, but she knew. When their bodies and souls had become one, she knew he loved her. But she didn’t say anything. And now it was too late.

‘In the end, we only regret the chances we didn’t take.’
She should have told him. When that whole mess with the author started. She should have told him that she was carrying a (yet) little part of him with her. Should have told him how happy (and scared) she was when she took that test and it was positive. But she was afraid he would run away from her. Like everyone else when things got difficult. That maybe it was too much, too early. Now it was too late.

Some nights when the pain of his absence was too much, she blamed herself. Maybe if she had told him…he would have one more reason to come back to her, to them. And then she could blame him. If he had fought more, or not fought at all. He would still be here and she wouldn’t be alone in that bench, looking at the sea, fighting the tears that seemed endless. Deep down she knew it wasn’t her fault or his. He just couldn’t make it. Fate once more was cruel to her.